19/10 – Field diary

Waiting isn’t visible, but you can feel it. It cannot be touched but it can touch you. You can feel it in your body, all the way from your head and down to your toes. Waiting is impossible to lock down; it is fluent and floating between us. Waiting is between you and me, creating a room.

With my work ”In Between” I am investigating the term waiting.

Waiting is a big part of our daily life. We are waiting for new episodes of our favourite tv-shows, the laundry to dry, and the dinner to be ready. We are waiting for something to happen, something to change. The emotions concerning waiting can be filled with expectation, longing and joy, but also with anxiety and stomach pain.

Waiting is something we do physically, by example, standing in line. But it is also psychological, a mental state. Waiting is a space where time is central. There is a void in waiting, a loneliness and passivity that I find interesting.

Waiting is something that is taken for granted, something that just happens. Something that lures in the shadow of what is going to become. There are rooms for waiting, waiting rooms. Big parts of our lives are waiting rooms. What are we doing there, and what is important in waiting?

I am interested in the space in between where time is on-going. Still it is like a vacuum, a borderless space where we spend so much time. What happens here and why is nothing happening?

I have chosen to focus my embodied work on female waiting. The female body have layers of waiting, both physically but also mentally. It is important for me to enhance the history of women that have been waiting. Thanks to those women, who have been waiting in the shadow of someone, I have the opportunity to make this work. The making in waiting is important. In today’s society, that has become more and more traditional, we have forgotten this waiting. A waiting of change. A week ago women were marching all around the world for women’s rights. It is 2017 and we need to march for our rights? How long should we wait to live in an equal society, for all?

”Waiting is in our bodies” (Beckman 2009:110).

I think the body is a good introduction to both corpus and jewellery. They both need a body to understand its function, just like waiting.

In my work I see the waiting room, the in between, become my corpus as it function as a container for me, my thoughts and for waiting. Jewellery is an extension of my body as well as a way for me to communicate. I see the difference between corpus and jewellery in my work. With corpus I can show you the room of waiting, and with jewellery I can show you how waiting feels like.