Abstract

Saker som inte finns och saker som inte har hänt (II)

Things that do not exist and things that haven´t happened (II)

It feels like I have a bulb of glass around my head. I'm in the real world but still I am not. My head is in another dimension. I can see that my body is moving but the movement feels unreal and

disconnected. Sounds are distorted – a sound from my head lies like a layer over all the sounds

around me. To be in the real world but not belonging, a place where sounds and movements feel

different and strange. It´s a quiet state, a secret panic that doesn’t show itself outwards. You must

wait, it will eventually pass.

My bachelor project is about a psychological state, which I call bathroom-psychosis. It’s about being

traumatised by sexual abuse. My work is about what happens afterwards, when the trauma is not

present. It’s about the human mind's ability to shut off and block difficult states but its lacking ability to take care of the mind fully. It’s a silent panic, turned

inwards – inside the own body. It´s a secret. A feeling you must suffocate. It must be hidden.