This essay is a companion piece, which consists of texts and images situated outside of a particular artwork, relevant to its thematics and the process. For me, that means inspirational material, theory, explanations, and images. Some give it a clarifying quality, but I consider adding more complex than that. The text is written as a poetic journal of my research. In some ways presenting the theory behind certain features but foremost undressing my process. Giving it the truer foundation of hard work, rather than ideas of flow and artistic inspiration. The artwork I’ve chosen is a video installation entitled ”we’re all motherfuckers”, where I raise questions of responsibility and guilt in environmental engagement. Because of this, the research circulates around activism, language and theories about environmental conditions.